A friend told me the other day about something suicidal people do sometimes, make a list of things they have to live for. It reminded me of a line from the 12 step book about making a similar list of things you value in your life and how much your destructive behavior hurts those things. If you do struggle with either suicidal thoughts or addiction, please seek help.
Every Beautiful Thing
Every beautiful thing
Is worth changing for.
Any glorious sunset
Can only truly be enjoyed
When the peace of the colors
Is matched by the peace in your heart.
The latter of success is not worth climbing,
And the height reached will be found lacking
If you leave behind honesty or integrity.
No race is truly won
If you placed first
But left pain and hurt in your wake,
Stepping over and past others to make it.
It’s a hollow victory
To conquer in the greatest battles in the world,
But be conquered within the silent chambers of your soul.
The moments before falling asleep
Are full of a happy peace when your life has earned it.
And only then.
In the end,
Every beautiful thing
Makes my life worth changing
For the better
